"Have u ever liked someone sooo much, that u just couldnt tell them? have u ever had a sleepless night because u couldnt stop thinking about them? have u ever felt so lonely that u cryed urself to sleep? have u ever lost someone u loved and prayed every night for them to return? have u ever felt the need to hurt urself on the outside because u couldnt stand the hurt inside? if u have ever felt like this then send this to everyone on ur list and with in one week someone u love will tell u how they feel. if u dont send this u will never fall in love again and the person u love will hate u! "

This is an exerpt from an IM i got recently. The sender is a close friend of mine. The answer is a definite NO. Because for me sleep is really important. And only something creative is more important than that.

Yes I am lonely and I feel that but I dont feel too bad about it. It just makes me feel for someone like Santhosh to whom I can talk to. And I dont pray at all. For me there is nothing too important or nothing insignificant this is when I feel in the right mood. Yes mood can change how a person looks into a particular thing. Sometimes you will feel that you would really want to have sex , at other times you will just want to be alone to be out of the system and relax in your own way. Sometimes you want yourself to be completely independant if that is possible and at other times you want someone to take care of yourself.

What this means that I have reached a particular stage in maturity where I can easily mask maturity. Now it is actually more than masking it is actually switching maturity within limits. THats act like a kid. Act really wild. But I never try to act adorable. Maybe because I dont like to be adored yes some do admire some qualities of mine. Thats not a prob, And I do admire a lot of things about them. What this means is I think for myself or atleast put an effort to. So for me it is much easier to cope with stress. Because it is all about know how much and how deep you should think about something.